&& E D E N ♥

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[Eden Hart.]
Read it if you want, but you'll only find me more strange.

We're too young to be critics. We won't miss anything.

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Monday.
No school.

Is it possible to miss a person even when they're right there in front of
you? Ivy was sitting right next to me a few weeks ago and I couldn't
have missed her more if I freaking TRIED. It was kind of like it wasn't
the same her anymore, it was a cooler Ivy who was shaped and
molded by all the horrible things that happened in her life, and [I
shudder to say] the new boyfriend. Some thing or another happened
while I wasn't here, and whatever it was, it made Ivy different. That's
why I miss her. I think I also kind of miss her because deep down I
know that I can never have her..
Yeah that's right, I went there. It's one of my deepest darkest secrets.
Wow I sound like such a mature little sixteen year old. Anyways, she
is now dating the wonderful and amazing S, while I'm stuck here still
... Still what? Still wanting her? Still wishing that I had someone
also so we can talk about how amazing the other one is while we
aren't with them? I don't know how long it's been since I've had a
girlfriend.. I'm doing just fine without one, or I was until I found out
about Ivy! r32089uqtp23jgoi2jofiawejfpawefaowpe I'm so annoyed
that she has messed up my life. But I bet it will only be temporary.
Eden bounces back. He doesn't get all depressed because his best
friend found someone else.
And I promised her I wouldn't leave her. I don't break promises.
Off to the park. If you're looking for me, I'll be under the oak.

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Tuesday
Late shift.

Anonymous notes.

1. I wish you would wake up and smell the coffee, figure out that maybe everybody at this new town likes the NEW you, but some of your old friends would probably spit on you if they even saw the new you. I still love you though, because whenever you're around me, I can still see the old you deep down inside. And I think the old you wants to come out and play, but you have her locked up deep down where no one knows she even exists. :[ I'll try to help.

2. I hope you don't think that I'm going to get so attached to you. We met in a horrible place, you see. There was no one else to talk to and there were people making out near me or asking for alcohol. I had no choice but to talk.. But if you think that I'm going to get attached to you, or even worse, FALL for you, then you have another thing coming. Maybe you should smell the coffee also.

3. So you're the one who came up with that stupid 'wake up and smell the coffee' saying, hmm? The saying is stupid, I don't even know what it means. Also, what about the people who HATE the smell of coffee? How do they get to be one with reality? Can we wake up and smell the green tea instead? Or how about wake up and brush your teeth? Take a big stretch? Forget it.

4. I really do miss the way we used to be. I know now that you have a boyfriend, are completely different than you were ten years ago, and don't dance in the rain anymore, that everything between us is different. Once again.

If you pick this up someday twelve years from now and think that I wrote this about you.. Chances are I probably did. More to come.


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Wednesday
Gay day

Anonymous notes. [more to come]

1. I wrote a poem today, just for you. It wasn't expressing my undying love for you, and how we will never be apart for as long as I live, etc. etc., but it wasn't all grunge and 'be a man' ish. Truthfully I like how this poem came out, whether you like it or not. But you know I wouldn't show you unless we were having one of those days...

2.Why would I suggest truth or dare? We all know that that only leads to 'I dare you to make out with him for ten minutes exactly!' or 'Tell the truth: Do you like anyone in this room right now?' Of course, that's only when there isn't just two of us.
Reminds me of the old country, but the old country has always been my favorite.

3. You're always leaving, you know. I mean you get my hopes up about not ever moving again, or leaving me alone in a little log house, but then you turn around and do it like you hadn't promised me before. I don't know how bad you are at what you do, and I'm sure you don't either.

4. Although I hate High School Musical, I have to quote it just this once and say that this could be the start of something new.

more to come.
more heartbreaks to come.


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Thursday
Close enough..

Almost Friday, I wish it were the weekend already.
Do I have amazing things planned for all three days of the weekend, containing every single second? Not so much. But I don't think I'm much of a person to figure out all of my plans before they happen. Any person who has spent ten minutes with me knows that I'm spontanious. In the most annoying way sometimes.
I wish I could play the piano..
Anyways. Nothing special going on in school tomorrow.
Although something wayyyyy great did happen to me today
and I'm not cheating, although now I guess I could be.
Not that we're going out or anything.
Wait who am I talking about this time?
No one understands.


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Thursday
It's finally happened.

All questions left unanswered.
How am I supposed to know who has what feelings for me?
Are my parents going to move away from this town in order to be closer to their business?
Have my parents forgotten that they have a home, or is it 'strictly business'?
Where have I been?
What just bit me on the arm?
Why can't I ever seem to say the right thing at the right time?
Why do I always ramble?
What song is this?
Why does it sound familliar?
Do I have time to write a poem right now?
This song IS familliar and I WILL write a poem. Right now. Maybe I'll copy it in here later. If it's any good.


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