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Post by <--IvySuicide on Sept 29, 2007 17:32:55 GMT -5
She was jsut so confused right now, Strydier was never around she just had noone to talk to noone to comfort her and it was only natural that someone like Jack someone that was sensitive and hurt to begin with find refuge with one of her best friends, he had always been someone that she went to when she needed someone to talk to. It had always been that way but what if he was with someone right now than she would be hurting him but something like that was not something that she thought about at a time like this. Looking around she stepped back but desperately wanted to be back in his arm's leaning agianst him hugging him agian. It was hard for her to stand there wrapping her arm's around her body and than wondering if he would be mad at her. She had liked him so much but she didn't know what he had felt and than she had left and he had stayed behind than she had found someone else. She had moved on and i guess it just wasnt meant to be and something like that really hurt her because she knew that it hurt him to. She didn't want to leave she wanted to be with him and when she had moved on she still thought about him and wondered how he was and where he was..
As he stepped back he to avoided her eyes she wondered if something like that had bothered him, she hoped it hadn't and than looked around and stepped toward him as she lowered himself down onto the grass she didn't know what to say right now but when he spoke it was like he broke the barrier that lay between them. Because knowing Ivy right now she would have said something that would hove been wierd of annoying or something like that. But lifting her voids for the first time they latched onto his and she smiled, this was the truth comming from her heart. She couldn't say it in any other way because it was the thing that popped into her head and it seemed like she should say something that she really felt for once in her life, "Eden you were always in the picture." She said totally serious not a hint of sarcasm in her voice as she spoke to him and than moved over to lower her body down next to him. If he wanted to her to sit closer she would but right now she was not to far so that he couldn't reach out and touch her but not right up bumping shoulders with him.
The god what's wrong with us part made her drop her head as she looked around and than sighed wondering what she was going to say. There was nothing that she could think of that would make this any better right now she just looked away for a second and than shrugged and looked back to him. It was the fact that whenever she looked back to him her eyes connected with his, she was drawn to sit closer to him once agian but she withheld herself thinking that if he wanted to sit closer to her he would certanly move closer to her and than that would be a problem solved, "I know it's just he's never around and you are always there for me." She almsot blurted out as she dropped her head and a clear crystal tear ran down her face. She didn't know what to do right now she just looked away down the path and than sighed and glanced back to him. "It doesn't matter if your not him it's the fact that you have always been you." She said moving closer to him again she hoped that he wouldn't turn away or move away down the grass. She wanted him to listen because him being himself was what had made her fall for him in the beginning and it was hard for her to hear him say something like that about not being Strydier. Who cares it was Eden that she had fallen for and whens he ahd left yes it had broken her heart but she ahd moved on and what did he want her to do wait around forever for him to come back into her life. That was something that Ivy just couldn't do. She was jsut not that kind of person. But having him back in her life had made everything harder to deal with. It was just something that she was going to have to figure out on her own.
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Post by d@ngereuse @ttraction™ on Sept 29, 2007 19:43:54 GMT -5
Although Eden had supposedly always been in the picture, no one had ever said that he had wanted to be in it. He didn't want to be the one making everything in Ivy's life difficult, even when he had just found her. I mean wasn't this kind of a sign? They had just been reunited and already he was making things confusing, breaking up relationships by being on the verge of being caught making out with another guy's girl... If that made any sense to anyone besides me. Even me, when I first read what I just typed I was like 'being caught with.. a girl's guy? A guy's gir- What?!' I don't always make as much sense as I do right now, and right now I'm sure a few of you reading this are slightly confused.. "I don't wanna be in the picture. Eden in the equation just makes everything more difficult, you know this by now. Remember that one time with the girl I liked and her boyfriend.. Yeah that didn't end quite like I had wanted it to. But you know being stuffed in a locker isn't all that confusing, really." Eden had once liked a girl who actually had a boyfriend. But Ivy had firmly told Eden that she would like him if he just told her how he truly felt about her. So Eden walked over to her while she was talking to her boyfriend and a few other friends, told her how he truly felt about her.. Annnnnd somehow he had ended up in someone's locker. He wasn't even sure whose it was, but he did know that it wasn't his own. Difficult. Eden looked down at his hands for a moment, wondering what would happen if he just told Ivy right now that he had feelings for her. Wow that was worded really cornily. Even so, it was true. If he confessed how he felt, would she call Strydier right at that moment and tell him that they were through? Would she start crying, knowing that this could never be? Was he making everything more and more difficult as the seconds that he didn't confess went by? If only Eden knew what would happen if he told her. And what would happen if he didn't. Truthfully though, he didn't WANT to know what would happen if he didn't tell her. He just wanted to tell her and know that everything was perfect after that. But as everyone who doesn't live in a fairy tale knows, nothing will be perfect very often.
Eden glanced up from his hands for a moment to catch Ivy shrugging and still avoiding his eye. He knew that it would ruin their friendship having one of them like the other... That's what he kept telling himself, at least. But was their friendship not strong enough to handle them going out? Eden wished this had never happened, he had never fallen for Ivy that one day years and years ago, that they had never met up again and ended up making out, that she had never met Strydier, and most importantly, that they had stayed together all this time. Life would have just been easier that way, he probably could have warned her in advance that Strydier was a scum ball. The strange thing about Eden was that he could always tell what was going on with people. He knew which guys to watch out for, which girls would turn out to be good friends, who to avoid and who to seek out in a crowd. He could have used that to help Ivy out! Why hadn't he been there for her..? Eden couldn't help but laugh at what Ivy had said. That he had always been him. I don't know why but moments like these kind of made Eden nervous, the little moment before something was said that would change ones life forever. Maybe Ivy was going to say it or maybe he would confess it, but either way Eden could feel it coming and was acting out of his nervousness. He was one of those people who started laughing at the things that were most un-funny when nervous. "I really have always been me.." Eden said after a moment of quite inappropriate laughter. "But it doesn't matter that I've always been me because I'm not the one you fell for in the first place. This Strydier kid is your boyfriend and I refuse to be the reason the two of you break up. Maybe I should just move back to Arizona for a bit, help you forget I even existed? Then I can move back here, but change my address so that you wont be able to trace me. And I'll figure out your route every day so I can go completely around you- It'll be like I was never here." Eden was actually kind of proud of his plan; except for the fact that it would tear him up inside to actually go through with it. At this point, he didn't want to go back to Arizona. And he didn't want to lose his best friend again, especially at the possibility that she liked him [or maybe it was all in the moment]. Not to mention he had a job here that paid really well, but that has nothing to do with nothing.
As Eden looked up and saw Ivy crying, he felt even more sad and confused than he had before she had started. Well maybe she wasn't crying 'cos it was only one tear but I'm just going to say that she was crying because I do that. Eden reached out and wiped the tear away, feeling horrible to have caused it to roll down her face in the first place.. No that sounds wrong. But I'm not going to change it. "I have a confession to make." Eden said quietly, bracing himself for the moment he had been expecting before. Could he really do it? Did he have the guts to tell her? It wasn't like it was all that hard, except for the rejection part. "I've been sorta madly in love with you since the moment I saw you.. But I never really told you 'cos I thought it would screw over our friendship. And I guess that right now isn't really the best time to tell you, but right now our friendship seems pretty screwed over to me, so why not make it worse?" Eden thought for a second, then pulled out his cell phone. "I should call my mum and tell her that I'm going to be a bit late but I'm on my way." Eden said, avoiding HER eye this time [Ivy's, not his mums ahaha.]. The thing he was afraid of most in life wasn't the dark as you probably expected, but rejection from the one person who had always mattered to him. This was why he wanted to get out of there feeling as good as he did, because it was finally said. She finally knew how he had always felt about her and he didn't have to hide it anymore because he would probably be avoiding her for one reason. The rejection. "Hey mum.."
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